A small but deep converse with myself ...

It’s really difficult at a time to present you. When u don’t know which road to opt. when u don’t want to go wrong to hurt anybody. Taking care of many things and meanwhile hurting your self. And knowingly ignoring you.

That time the only ting in this planet you want to hold someone hand and sit with him, who really understand you. You don’t need to say anything and he will understand everything.

Hard to believe but even I thought of getting somebody who will take care of me.
I made friends relation but yet to find him. And I am pretty sure I can’t find him.

I have seen his glimpses few time in some people then got disappear, I asked god “is this much time is only allocated in my life to be and live best movement in my life” my answer was untold. May be Allah want me to find out the answer?

There were days passed searching the answer. Then I realized while loosing my relation loosing good friend with some random reason, I become conscious it happen because of my dependency on them. My dependency parameter is yet not defined to me, as for I know myself I am not demanding most, but may be I am who knows?


They move on not bother may be, how I am, what I am doing, (am I
Sounding complaining) No I am not, I am happy and learned with the time don’t open your heart even it pain most. Because it very difficult for people sometime to support you, so don’t trouble them. It’s not their fault it’s our fault, at a time we complain and take people for granted not knowing may be they are having bigger and deeper pain within themselves.
May be those who look stronger is week from inside, they may not open this to u


And the soul one whom I thought to hold me to take care of me to understand me to guide me is in me.
I only forgot to connect me with myself. It’s not like that I used to be like this. It’s just while walking towards the life, I select a way where I had to take decision and leave my friend and Get in to new city with new life leaving my old relation and then I realized I am empty hand. Then the emptiness gives me company which I certainly didn’t like.

But now I am thinking how it does matters, If today I am aware where to get that friend who is for me who care for me and who will hold me, it’s in me. 24 x 7, I couldn’t see him. It’s my cautious who always reach me when I am in doubt when I am thinking to go ahead with choices of mine.

Zyada ho gaya shayed, padhne wala bhi doubt karega what’s wrong with stupid fellow.
Hey I love this!!!!